Never Grow Up

When we were younger we had very little reservations for caring or holding much back for what we did or thought.  Our biggest concerns was can we stay up late to watch my favorite show, can I have another cookie before bed, or can I go outside and play with my friends? We were essentially blank slates.  We never had any inclination what the real world really held.  Our own little worlds where so tiny, yet so fragile.  We never stopped and really wondered where things came from, or how it all worked, or what our parents may have been burdened with.  There was no need too.  Why would we?  When we are young we want everyone's acceptance. 

As we progress into our teens we start to learn new concepts and experiences but we still rarely care about the big scheme of things.  Well, you care, but you care more about numero uno.  I found here in my experience I cared so much less about everyone else's approval for acceptance and approvals and fitting in.  I no longer wanted to be apart of their well built establishment of clicks in high school I wanted to be me.  Yet still having no major responsibility in life except what was most important to yourself.  High school world  seemed like a sad joke.  You believed your whole world was wrapped around in that whole place and nothing much existed.  Except there really is a whole world out there.  All you worried about is what new CD came out, when will I hang out with my friends.  When will I see my favorite band yet again and oh the ultimate question is my father going to pull the spark plugs out of my vehicle again for the way I'm dressed or style preference   This used to blow my mind.  I remember getting annoyed but never really getting mad at him for it.  I remember getting dolled up back in the 90's (I believe the skirt was to my knees or for example ) to go some where out with friends.  He casually asked, where do you plan on going.  I replied out with friends.  He nodded and said, not until you changed and I remember thinking oh, sure, sure.  He never said anything and I never thought twice about it.  Till I went out to my car and tried to turn it on and it wouldn't start.  I come back in.  Dad my car won't start!  My father would casually reply...I know, I took out the spark plugs out, now go change.  I just remember thinking, well played sir, well played.  I have two younger sister...and I wanted retribution   I couldn't wait to see it happen to them.  I never got to see that kind of requirements for them, perhaps I was the lucky one.  

Regardless,  As we get older we start to realize we become more reserved and real things actually happen and the world ultimately does not revolve around you, despite what you once thought.  It's fun to look back and reflect on those times of youth.  Now your an adult.  You go to work, you pay bills, taxes, ugh, you deal with real life situations you really didn't  have to before, you break hearts, your heart gets broken, you deal with the happiest of times and the worst of times now and yet  self evolution continues and there is a whole big giant world out there for you.  Being an adult is exactly what you make of it.  I chose to still be a little excentric and have a great appreciation for that big world of life and a greater appreciation for all the shock and awe experiences that came with growing into my own adult self.  I regret very little.  Regrets hold you down.  I try to learn from my past with very little resentment.  For those past lessons are what shapes who you become.  I also don't allow them to decide my overall being because I wouldn't want to miss out on opportunity's or experiences I can experience   I hate the saying that people never or can't change.  It's the lack of wanting to or allowing yourself to evolve.  At this point I'm content as to whom I have shaped into as an adult as I still welcome self evolution always.  

Sometimes you gotta wonder though, wasn't it more fun when your biggest worry was am I going to get in trouble for breaking the rules?  Now that I am my own adult and I make my own rules its not as much of a thrill.  Just sayin'.....then again....it all depends.  I leave you with that.

I Don't Need A Holiday

The holiday to be thankful...hmm.

I guess I find this holiday annoying.

Here's why.  Everyone gets with their family one day out of the year or maybe more to stuff their faces and most often get aggravated.  My thoughts are simple the on the matter, I practice it everyday.  Small or big.  I'm already thankful and I make the efforts.  For my small victories and my losses, my big victories and for my family, close friends, cute kitties and the things that matter most.  That being said, I just don't feel the need to make a holiday out of it and those that do enjoy it I'm not trying to disrespect anyone.  I'm ultimately thankful for all my experiences.  They are the foundation and evolution of my soul and that I am thankful for.  I show the people I value through action and words.

To my fellow American's

I keep reading about how everyone is very upset about the election, where our country is heading and so forth.  I'm going to try and keep this simple without pushing MY or any political party agenda.  That being said...

I want to remind my disgruntled fellow Americans the first line of the Constitution say "WE THE PEOPLE"...Not We the government.  It will. If you choose to do nothing or iqnore everything. 

We the people need to stop having this little pitty party and arm ourselves with our education.  Seems most of us already have.  Most of us already have strong views.  But its lacking the know how and the responsibility due to step up to the plate when we don't like something.  Hence the Constitution.  We talk about it constantly but do we really soak it in and utilize our abilities, We the people have?

Technology, media, busy lifestyle all there for us to distract us for the government to do as they want.  WE have the ability to make a difference.  WE the people have the ability to change it, We the people need to step up the game and fight for what YOU believe in. Start writting to your local congressmen, write to the sentate, start a petition.  Hell start a strike if that's what it takes.  But We the people like sheep give the goverment all the power with very little fight hand over fist and we either sit back and accept the changes or you make a difference whatever that is.  Like busy working drones government relys on this.  If you never once wrote, or voiced your opinion to your local congressmen, to the senate or any avenue you pretty much have given government all the power.  So make a change,  start some where is better than no where. 

I leave you with this thought...
People in history who made a difference made a difference. Because they did something, they fought for what they believed in. Not because they didnt.  Maybe its all time WE fought for something WE believe in.  

my weight loss journey thus far

People ask me constantly, "How did you do it?"  My answer I guess is simple.  It'simplicity this time around my state of mind and lifestyle choices and education and lack of pressure.  I don't presume to have all the answers, except for what has worked and has failed in the past for me.  What has failed for me, is what I have noticed has failed for a majority.  Pressure of losings weight and using terms such as dieting and focusing on the evil mechanism the scale, the do's and don'ts.

What I did is what seemed to be the fail safe approach and to great success has worked.  One I educated myself and started small.  It seems that when it comes to educating your self in this area somethings are overwhelming and people feel they need to go all in to make it work and its not true, do what you can in your lifestyle.  Make simple lifestyle changes small or large based on your lifestyle that you can do.  Any change is actually better than none at all.

What first inspired me was my cousin the model told me to watch Fat Sick and Nearly Dead.  It's then I felt a personal connection to the documentary and realized a lot of obvious truths behind it.  The personal connection is I was a chronic migraine suffer for years with no answers, that tried lots of avenues.  I highly recommend it.
After I had watched it I spoke with my cousin about the film and he gave the greatest advice anyone could give.  Which was, "Your body, the mirror and clothes will tell you everything, forget the scale.  The mirror doesn't lie"  So through out this journey I really retained what he said.  I never once weighed myself.  I only did when I had a follow up at the doctors and that's when it kinda started to make sense.  It all started to really hit me when people started to comment that I really needed to go out and buy new clothes. HAHAHA.  Although, I have never done the full blown juicing route due to at that time in my life I was recently laid off from a job, so I modified it.  Like I said simple, lifestyle choices. I incorporated the drink Green Machine in my diet and started to have more focus on fruits and vegetables in my diet than large portions of meat.  I stopped eating past 6pm and I totally axed out soda only now to occasionally have it.   When you totally get ride of it you will no longer want it.  But you do it slowly and I never once focused on what I was actually doing.  Just made choices. Simple choices. Then I became more active, not super active but more, but I feel that making it a lifestyle change and being simple about it and not thinking about it is what has and given me the edge to not have to incorporate the working out portion to all this.  Also I find that your body may be dehydrated vs actually hungry so I always have a glass of water before eating if I'm still hungry in a half hour then I'll have something.  Well all know what is shit food,  I stay away from fast food at all costs.  So there are the mini lifestyle choices I had incorporated, and I continue and evolve everyday.

Yesterday I saw my hairdresser who I saw in September she said I drastically changed in two months since she last saw me.  Sometimes it like a shock and awe value, cause you still look at yourself in the same light at times.  But I'm proud of myself on so many levels.  I was never highly overweight, but being overweight doesn't make us feel any better as we get older and I'm starting to feel better in my skin again, and so with a glass a wine last night I cheated and stepped on the scale to see that I'm 7lbs away from goal.  Does that mean once I get to goal to stop my learned lifestyle choices?  Never.  I hope to not turn into a stick, ick!  But  to turn back to the dark side, I think not.