It's finally here. It's all come down to this test tomorrow. I must go to Griffis Park at 200pm to take my CompTIA Networking + exam. 80 questions pulled from a pool of 600 and two simulation questions. I feel sick to my stomach to be honest. I feel terrorfied. This isn't college. This is real life exam. Where's the wine??? To go into vast depth of my past and why it means so much would be a pain in my ass. I've worked so hard to get myself here. Now I'm here. Now if I don't pass this exam what will this mean to my self worth? I can't see the option of failing but I cannot predict what lies ahead. Only that I know I want it so badly and I know I've tried and done my best. I guess worst case. I take it over again. That would be a low blow to my ego considering my past. Everyone has such high and hopeful expectations of myself and my brain feels like a necular power plant about to burst. I'm not sure I see what they see... Or maybe I don't want to set my myself up. My fault lies in my frailty that I try to block it all out and be a mute with emotions. Bahahaha..... Ya huh.
